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Duryodhan

      I intend to get up early in the morning at 6 o’clock. Alarm rings, I switch it off. “Tomorrow I will surely get up in time.’ That tomorrow never comes.

      My BP is high. Doctor has told me to stop fatty and sweet food. The dinner dish is served, full of such tantalizing food. I can’t resist the temptation. ‘Tomorrow I will resist’. That tomorrow never comes.

     I became angry with a friend. In fact fault was mine. ‘Tomorrow I will beg him to forgive.’ That tomorrow never comes.

    A contractor came to office today, and gave me a large sum as bribe. ‘Accepting bribe is immoral. I will not do so henceforth.’ That day never comes.

    I go to Sunday for religious discourse. Gita sermon is very good. It penetrates my heart and mind. But I forget it when I come home.

    A ‘Duryodhan’ resides hidden within me. I know him well. But I cannot assassinate him. But I intend to become Arjuna of Gita tomorrow. That tomorrow never comes.

Original in Gujarati

For the benefit of Non – Hindu readers…

Duryodhan and Arjuna  are the villain and hero of Hindu epic ‘Mahabharat’

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Becoming Free; chapter- 8 ; Living in present

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To become free means – to live in present.

        The entire gamut of our existence is selfishness. It is perhaps a platonic dream; an ideal; a dormant desire that it transforms into incessant love and compassion. But the fact remains that we have never truly loved our own self! Our concern for self continues to roam between past and future. But real life is lived only in this moment. The stream of life synchronises with ever flowing stream of moments. Past is a stagnant, stinking, stale poodle; and future is a mirage that can never be reached. Life is the clearly visible mountain stream that can be seen, watched, listened.

      But what does it mean to ‘Live in present’?

    Our fixed way of being is to brood over the nightmares of the past or reveries of wishful thinking and  fears for the unknown future – anxieties and constant wanderings  to reach the mirages. The throbbing flow of life is in this moment; in every breath that we breathe. Each and every action that we take happens in this moment only- not outside of it.

     We live for millions of moments in our life time. But how many are really filled with joy and liveliness? Very few indeed. If we achieve something; we feel that joy and liveliness for a short time. But the next moment  worries start whether that ‘something’ will remain with us or go away.Or we see our friend or neighbor to possess something more precious than ours; and our joy and liveliness wither away. Most of our joys are momentary only. This is our fixed way of being; our non erasable destiny.

      Or is there another way?

     Yes, there is.

    What we are going to gain or lose in life depend on a myriad of factors. Perhaps we do not have any effective control over them. But our happiness does depend on our attitude towards them.

     We may accept this fact and decide that we will change our attitude and start living with joy , whatever be the circumstances. But is it possible or is it just theoretical? We may think that it could be the way only if we become hermits, renouncing the normal life that we are used to.

    We may accept the undeniable fact that we are not be able to live always with a change in attitude. But isn’t possible that we steal away a few moments and try to live that way only for those moments? How about allocating a few moments just for our rudimentary being?

      Such a free moment with self imbibed discipline is the starting point of ‘Living in present’ .With a determined intention and an effort that is never postponed; we can engage ourselves into a seclusion with our self , at least for those moments. In those moments; we make a determination that we will not have any urge for economic, social, political, or relation related gain.

     We commit ourselves for those few moments daily and for each and every day that-

  • I am nothing.
  • I have nothing.
  • I want nothing.

      If we are prepared to adopt this disceline and this experiment and gain real experience to see what happens; we may go through the next chapters of this series of articles.

       And…. Just do not read them. Start implementing with earnestness and firm commitment. Imbibe that discipline with conscious and affectionate efforts.

       Writer of these articles wishes you success.

Becoming Free; chapter- 7 ; love

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“I am nothing;
I have nothing;
I want nothing.”

     It is very easy to say this. But is it necessary to mention, how difficult it is to implement it?

    It is like changing the direction of our lives. It is unnatural. The basis of life and the instinct of life is utter selfishness. So how such an attitude can take place?

     An imagination about this basic selfishness of life may be read here. ( GRASS)

    At first glance, it would surely appear that it is impossible to think of ‘being nothing’. It is this self centeredness that has caused tremendous progress in human life. Is it to be pushed back to the stone age way? Should we leave all the comforts and luxuries that we are so used to in modern life?

     No. That is never going to happen; e.g. this facility of internet and blogging is a modern tool; and these thoughts propagate only because these tools are available!

    But it is an undeniable fact that the self centeredness goes on expanding in an uncontrolled way alongwith this progress.The rat race to go higher up in the social pyramid, goes on eroding incessantly the values of social co-existence and cooperation. The world has become a big village; but the distance between close individuals goes on widening. This moral downfall is evidenced by wide spread  violence, corruption, the rock bottom level of sensitiveness, the gap between rich and poor, moral degradation, and stress and acute diddatisfaction in the life of a common man.

      A state of having ‘no expectations’ and this volacano of unsatiable expectations – how could these two opposites be related? Each one of us wails at the distinct impossibility of coming out of this dilemma of life.

     This effort of ‘becoming free’ is to quech this burning volcano. This process is not going to happen overnight. It is a reverie that ‘such a quenching’ could be the way of human lives. But the process can definitely start by kindling a candle within us. Without expecting that each one of the human race will get transformed overnight; we can start the process within us. And even that is not going to happen overnight – just by reading such lucid narratives!

     We have to make conscious efforts in that direction – constant, incessant, conscious efforts – and with love. It is surely very difficult. But let me tell you, on the basis of a few experiences in my life that each one of us has a seed dormant within us for such an awakening. We surely have that capability.

     We have to start with ourself getting whole and empty. And write it on the opposite wall that, that emptiness will soon get filled with joy and peace.

      We may argue that the state of affairs can change so; if the direction changes. If we want to go to North, we have to face north; and to south, if we want to go south! But do we have any capability ; any tool within us for this change OR we are wedeed with helplessness and despair only?

   The superamental power of life that has given this instinct of urge to live, expectations and the desire for pursuit of happiness has also given us a great gift too ; which is –

LOVE

   We have understood LOVE only as sexual attraction between a male and a faemale; built in our anatomy. We have made the tremendous power of LOVE – so limited in that extremely narrow understanding. Life can exist only if love for life exists. So many of our activities arise out of the domain of love. ‘I like this.’; ‘I love that.’ – these utterings are the external manifestations of that quality of love lying deep within our being. All new creations ( including the basis birth of human foetus) is a product of love. New inventions, new paths of way of life, new art object, new poem – all these originate from the domain of love. There are no factories to manufecture them!

    So, if we want to get rid of that ‘Rat Race’; we have to learn the art of nurturing that seed, dormant within us, right from the moment of starting of our existence.  We have to bring back in our lives the playfulness of the child that we were. We have to reorient the cart of our lives from the dead ruts of the way of life- we are so used to – into the highway of love.

   Everyday we have to spare a few moments for nurturing this change within us. Then only new saplings will sprout from that dormant seed. Slowly we have to aspire for a day when the whole of our life is green and fresh with the new foliage – based on that love.

   We have been advised umpteen no. of times to get rid of likes and dislikes. But we have forgotten the fact that – they have been recommended in context of fruits of our efforts – never for the activities that we do. We do need to like positive and welfare oriented activities and dislike negative and destructive activities! We DO need and aspiration to attain a state of ‘No expectations’!

      We started this narrative with the saying-

When one becomes free by changing one’s attitude
The TIME becomes ones helper.

      The poet who wrote this has written this beautiful saying too –

The traveller on the path of love does not crave for results.
He sacrifices his life in pursuit of love but does not deter back his steps.

-‘Rajani’ Palanpuri

     This love to devote whole life for the cause of love is the first step in the ladder of the process of becoming free – love for every moment of life being lived.

     Whatever we do; we start doing with an acute sense of love. We may get result or we may not get; but every moment is spent; every action is done with that love of life. Like a lover mad in his love; like an intoxicated drunkard enjoying every sip of his elixir; whether someone appreciates or not; whether we get any banefit of the effort or not- we go on doing all the cores of our lives. We may set goals for the course of our life activities; but we rejoice every step that we take; every cobblestone of our path; every shoot of grass that comes in our way. Even if a thorn comes in the away; we accept it as a test that consolidates our unshakable faith in Love for the path.

     Constant dissatisfaction; constant like; constant aspiration, constant expectation, constant quest, constant madness… in love for life.

      And write down on the opposite wall – ‘ Only a mad man is truly FREE.’

We have now become mad
in love to live in this moment
– and we have become free!

 

Becoming Free; chapter- 6 ; Change in expectations

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     We thought over instincts of mind. Now we proceed further in our study to be free.

   Expectations are at the root of all our woes; and life without expectations is practically impossible.What a pitiable situation? How unbearable a prison? What deep helplessness?

     Very few would have been devoid of helplessness. If someone is known to be a saint, who has renounced all expectations from life; he /she would be having a new goal – ‘Let me do something; so that my brethren become free of the bondage of desires.’ That is why Jesus was crucified; and Gandhiji was shot dead. Thus expectations, even in their ameliorated state would persist.

     We also saw that the root of expectations is- ‘desire to live’. But a bye product of the desire to live is ‘To get what is missing in life; pursuit of happiness.’ This is the primary goal of life; the fundamental expectation from life. The quest for happiness generates new desires and that imaginary phantom of happiness gets shifted further away from us.

    A child thinks that; “I do not have a toy; and my friend has it. So I too want to have it in my possession.” A student desires to get first rank in the examination. A young man or woman yearns to have sensual pleasure that will ignite a fire in every cell of his/her body. A popper just looks for two square meals to keep body and soul together. A millionaire has ambition to become a billionaire. A king wants to become a supreme emperor over greater territory. A saint yearns to become a prophet.

      Achieving, procuring, more… more… and more… The moment that desire is fulfilled -that thirst is quenched – something again seems missing and again the dreams for achieving and procuring more pop up.

     New quest; new expectations; new struggles; new woes… the same closed loop that keeps us running for the whole life. Myriads of poems have been written on those mirages of life and will go on being written.

    We may also note and never forget that dissatisfaction over current state of affairs is needed for development, progress and reconstruction. Mentality of – ‘All is perfect.’ –  will definitely result in stagnation. We may also conclude that’This is life.’ Very true!

     But a common experience of all is that the race for development and achievements generates stress. The fire of dissatisfaction does generate new vistas of advancement but it does not pacify. Something is always missing despite having everything! One at the tip of pyramid aims at new horizons to conquer. A preacher who preaches to renounce everything aims at adding a few more to his lot of disciples!

     None is at rest. There is a void that never fills. ‘I want this; I want that.’

     But the way out is very simple too. Till the quest for ‘That’ is there; there is a void. The sense of – ‘This is it.’ – puts a stop to the restlessness. We may continue to run in quest of new; but there is a possibility of getting joy in each and every step that we set forth in our journey.

     Our life may be full of roses OR wild flowers or even thorns; nobody stops up in making an Ikebana out of them. If we learn the art of making that Ikebana, we can put a stop to our woes. If we get joy in every step of our lives, we have lived. Otherwise there is not much of difference between us and a corpse.

   The art of making an Ikebana out of available materials is the ‘art of living’. That is the way to be free. Then we can fly free in the sky and go ahead wherever we want to reach. It is transformation of our expectations –

  • Not a pursuit for happiness; but a quest for joy.
  • Joy gives rise to Chaitanya – throbbing life
  • The experience of life throbbing in every cell of our being gives us access to Truth- the truth of life in this moment.
  • The realization of truth leads us to experience of oneness with our basic being

      As we start listening to this inner voice; the cobwebs of darkness, ignorance and deep slumber start getting dilapidated. Instead of running behind imaginary mirages, we start feeling the soothing coolness of the spring of life within us. Nothing would change practically and yet everything would be seen in new light.

    Goals will remain; as also planning to attain them. The steps and struggles will also continue- as will expectations. But the expectations get a rudimentary transformation. The ever persistent quest will still be there. Only the direction changes- outward to inward. We start desiring to distribute the joy; sharing it with all. We may not become saints ; but start living a kindly life.

  A well known Gujarati poet has said-

“It may be death or life; there is one common helplessness. The funeral procession goes ahead on support of shoulders of those carrying it. Life too proceeds further on support of others.’

– ‘Mariz’

   This sense of helplessness is the transformation of our present predicament. We start acknowledging the support we get from so many sources and start extending similar one to those whom we can.

    I’, ‘My’, ‘Me’ – that eternal dialog takes a total turnaround. The sense that ‘Our whole life – from birth to death- has been dependant on others’ – germinates a deep sense of gratefulness. Our panorama of action and activities go on getting dedicated for service to others; instead of merely for the self. The whole life becomes a Yagna. (Holy fire of sacrifice). Goals, planning, strivings – all for the benefit of all around me;  nothing for myself.

An ever persistent echoing and resounding voice …

I am nothing;
I have nothing;
I want nothing.

     ( That ‘I’ is NOT our so called identities or masks –but our true being – what we are at core.)

‘I want this, and I want that’gets replaced by a desire to share and serve.

Becoming Free; chapter- 5 ; Instincts of mind (Dream and Spark)

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Dream

     Lacking gives rise to dreams. Dreaming for a new possibility is quite distinct from normal thought process. We may even say that ‘A man who has no dreams is not human.’ Dreams arise out of thoughts or may be in a totally different direction. A man rolling in poverty dreams of living in a palace. A palatial house dweller dreams of becoming an emperor. A devotee dreams of being one with the divine while in meditation. It definitely is a product of desires, expectations, ambitions; but it includes vistas beyond them too.

     It is a yearning to achieve something unseen or not thought of, inexperienced, unattained. Many dreams have no base at all. They make one roam in totally different lands or situations. They make him envision totally strange matters.

  A scientist yearns to find an unexplained secret of nature OR attaining a new level of consciousness and meditation in the internal journey of a devotee. It is the yearning of ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull’ to fly higher and faster.

Spark

      When thoughts have stopped; when the sense of lacking has encompassed the psyche; when all dreams and infatuation for all desires are shattered; at such a moment of abyss, one experiences opening of an unknown gate in a secret corner of the dark tunnels, by the grace of some superamental power. I have given it a name of ‘Spark’. Mohandas Gandhi was thrown out of the train compartment in South Africa and a spark of awakening made him a Mahatma out of a barrister. This is like an electrical spark or a small speck of fire; that initiates a conflagration.It happensd on its own without any effort or prior indication. It can occur in the life of a great man like Gandhi or in a very very ordinary person.

 Such an awakaening does not take shape from any thought. It comes out the sphere of lacking and dream. It sprouts without any seed. It is like opening of a door in a blank wall. Many have experienced such a sudden, unthouht, undreamt opening like a flower blossoming in their lives.

    Everything remaining same, and no new possibility or opportunity showing to open up; everything appears to have changed at such a moment. Far away from imaginations and dreams, in the depths of uncertainties, in the dark abyss – a new ray of light springs forth. A new highway opens up. For such a spark no parameter or the fundamental animal instincts or other three instincts of human mind are responsible. Such a awakening pops up on its own. But a dormant seed does exist, on its own; deep inside all layers of human consciousness. It can pop up anytime. It is as if human mind is programmed for such a possibility!

   Such a spark unveils the hidden truth to a scientist; who might have been unsuccessful in all his efforts and experiments, and could not hope for any ray of hope of finding the solution. A man bried deep in suffering and depression sits up and strats running- rejuvenated by a new fervor of hope and zeal. We may call such a spark descent of Divine grace. It can never arise out of efforts or thoughts or dreams. It generates on its own. Whether there was any apparent seed or not; such a spark totally transforms a person from a weakling, semi developed infant into a ‘Sir Issac Newton’

  Thinking that ‘Jesus or Mohommed or  Buddha was enlightened by such a spark.’; all start craving and struggling for opening of a door in their lives. They start doing yogic and religious practices. They start searching and serving Gurus. But such a spark can not arise out of any apparent effort. Such a possibility may not be having any trace in one’s being; but it does pop uplike an uninvited guest! We may not call it a normal instinct or tendency of human mind; but it does incarnate.

  Of course possibilities of such a spark occurring is definitely more in a scientist or a spiritual devotee. But lives very common people like Rabia, Mira or Joan of Ark have also demonstrated such awakenings.

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  Such a spark may spread like a conflagration in the life of an individual and spread like wild fire in the community. It may give rise to a paradigm shift in the social psyche. Such a spark may also extinguish in a few moments too. But such sparks are surely a dimension in human lives.

  Perhaps such a chain reaction of thought, lacking, dream and spark of awakening may have given rise to evolution of  a human mind from  a savage ape.

  And… it may also happen that an unknown enlightenment may protrude in the psyche of human race snoring in the slumber of ignorance and darkness of carnal thought processes. It may happen that a new, super human race may evolve. If at all such an evolution takes place, the human existence may witness a new, unthought off, unimagined, undreamt dimension to human consciousness. Human consciousness may enter a new paradigm.

     ‘Becoming Free’ is an effort to dream of such an occurance of awakening and enlightenment in an individual, in local communities as also in the entire human race.

    Perhaps a spark may occur somewhere and the door to highest peaks of consciousness may open up all of sudden.

Becoming Free; chapter-4 ; Instincts of mind (Thought and lacking)

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    In animal kingdom, four instincts are considered as rudimentary.

  1. Hunger
  2. Sleep
  3. Fear
  4. Intercourse( Reproduction)

     All activities of all animals are based on these four basic instincts; in varying degrees. These decide the way of life for any animal – for either a tiger or a mouse or a small insect or a gigantic whale.

     Of course over and above these, love too abounds in them to some extent; e.g. love between a ring master and a ferocious lion in a circus or a dog and his master; a horse and his rider. Many a place enemies like a dog and cat are also seen living amicably in the same house. These examples imply that love too is present in animal lives.

    In human beings, over and above these five; there are many more faculties- the base of which is human mind. In some animals there is also some extent of thought and reasoning. But it is on a very limited scale.

  The human mind has myriad of characteristics; but in the opinion of this writer – there are four basic characteristics of human mind; which are at its root and give rise to all its unfathomable depths –

  1. Thought
  2. Lacking
  3. Dream
  4. Spark

     We will look into the first two here, in short.

Thoughts

     The word ‘human’ probably is connected with ‘man’; which means mind in Sanskrit – a base language of most of Indian languages. Mind means capacity to think. This is basic force in all human beings aboriginals, laborers, highly intellectual scientists, a great conqueror, or a business tycoon. In all of them, the capacity to think is always present in large or small degree. A man observes about things and situations; compares them with his accumulated knowledge/ memories and evaluates/ analyzes them. He adds hues of imagination and logical conclusions as also sentiments; and takes actions and reactions. He develops likes and dislikes for them. These give birth to his six enemies too -Desire,  Anger, Conceit, Greed, Infatuation and  Jealousy.

     Even in the foundation of human civilizations, in their conflicts and desires to be supreme – thought process is the basic element; in all its good or bad features. Most of human endeavor is the outcome of ‘Thoughts’

Lacking

   Over and above the thought process; an element of lacking is present and works independently. He always suffers from a desire/ anxiety to achieve something that he has never seen, known or experienced. He may have everything that he wanted and yet he always feels about something that is lacking. This is the experience of each one of us- even of a person at the pinnacle of social pyramid. A person rolling in wealth and power as also a poor man dwelling in a ramshackle hut or even a street dweller is always feels that something is lacking. Poets call it a mirage. This is his instinct over and above thought. This lacking drives his thoughts too. He craves to achieve something, which he has not even thought of; which does not exist at the moment. He does many useful or non useful activities, He feels disturbed due to that unknown. He feels depressed or frustrated on account of it. Ambitions, new inventions, new creations are the outcome of this instinct of lacking. If there is no lacking; nothing new could be created. Such lacking gives rise to fresh thoughts; and thoughts give rise to new lackings. It becomes a closed circle. But fact remains that these two are distinctly separate entities. They have their own existence.

   This lacking gives rise to new instruments for human needs, comforts and luxuries on the outside. Lacking is at the base of science and knowledge – inventions of stone and bow and arrow to fell fruits or for hunting, stock breeding and agriculture, wheel, pottery, baskets, barter and commerce. Myriad of such inventions have given rise to science, crafts, technology, business and industry.

    But such a lacking could be and is – internal too. It may generate out of his animal instinct of fear; generated from outside forces or by his own thought process. ‘Who am I?’; “Who has made all these things in nature?”; “What will happen to me after I die?”- Such questions bother him and give rise to an internal quest. This is at the base of philosophy and religion. It is on account of such a lacking that man has imagined/ thought of a superior / divine existence – of God.

   Religions, sects, beliefs, faiths,  religious traditions are generated out of some lacking. Perhaps they are not based on logical observations or deductions. But at their root is some sort of a lacking or emptiness. These may arise out of unknown fear or excess of satisfaction too!

    A person, who is passing through a dark, endless tunnel of unhappiness and is not able to see any ray of hope in his miserable life; who is standing on the heaps of shattered dreams, lost belongings or broken relationships does experience an acute lacking. But it is also present in the psyche of a person at the pinnacle of his life time achievements. He feels loneliness at the top and creates a new longing to search for further heights – new, nonexistent visions, new insatiable desires.

    These lackings go on drilling holes in the psyche. They are there, as thoughts are. These are at the roots of science and philosophy.

 

Becoming Free; chapter-3 ;Trends of mind

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    We may accept that, expectations and desires are the root cause of all our woes. But we have to go to the roots of these expectations and desires; if we want to look into the ways of how to circumvent their shackles. In that light, let us think how life originates and develops.

    The fetus in mother’s womb is totally dependent on her systems and is in a dormant state. Its nutrition and growth are dependent on mother’s blood. It does not need any food, water or air of its own. Its bodily discharges also depend on the mother. Everything happens through the medium of her blood. In that dark chamber, the only senses it has are touch and faint sounds. Its only functioning organ is its heart that keeps its blood circulating in the tiny limbs. Mostly it has no thoughts too. This is the state of total surrender in the first phase of life.

    If we look into the role of mother, she too nurtures the fetus in a totally passive and unconscious way; except being mentally aware that a new life is taking shape in her womb. Her total being – her body, mind and her spirit- take over the responsibility of the nurturing the new being that has surrendered to her system in an automatic way. Her tastes change. Food unsuitable to the growth of fetus does not get digested. Her breasts start developing systems that would be needed for nutrition of the infant that is going to be borne. Some unknown power has aroused her body, mind and spirit for this noble cause of creation of a new being.

Hence, if God at all exists,
He would be like the mother!

      As soon as the child is borne; it stops getting this support. On cutting off of the umbilical cord; this mechanism comes to an end. It comes from total darkness to light and starts getting informations. His / her instinct of survival immediately takes over control of all his/ her reflexes. The new being  has to breathe the first breath itself. When his/her lips are brought to the nipple of mother’s breast; they start chewing. These are the first sensations of existence and struggles/ attempts for continuation of that existence – new sounds, new touch sensations, new tastes, new smells,new actions. As soon as the eyes open, new visions. Every new sensation and experience infuses new information in his/her developing mind. In the most primary state too, the mind starts interpreting each and every new information and understanding it; and starts creating likes and dislikes. The process of formation of nature and attitude starts building.

    This process is going to continue for the whole life. Sensations, interpretations, reactions, likes, dislikes, smiles and tears, attitudes, imitations of sounds and sights, thoughts,information and knowledge -the joys and woes generated  by all of these. New identities get created- new —. Every occurrence and its interpretation generates new expectations.

Thus….
Expectations are an indivisible part of our existence.

    This is our destiny, originating out of the  creation of our self and our contunuiing existence. So, if someone gives us a wise counsel to shun expectations- it is simply not possible.It is an instinct that is wound in every strand of our being; every cell of our body; each and every attitude of our mind.

      This is the normal trend of our psyche.

     Then, how do we have access to the truth of eternal Joy; if at all it exists? How can we make ourselves free of the chains of our instinct to survive and the expectations arising out of it? How we take out our basic being out of the clutches of a closed circle of our destiny?

    How can we be free? How can we have access to eternal joy, supreme consciousness and the eternal truth or power to acquire them?

    Before we look into the tools that have been discovered by the wise over the ages; we will study the trend of our psyche in a bit greater details.

 

Becoming Free; chapter-2 ;Expectations

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‘Time becomes a helper,
if we change our attitude’ –

    This is not an empty musing or a vagary of mind. We have many examples in history of people who started their lives in a very ordinary way; as also had no special resources or high intellect at their disposal. Mahatma Gandhi is such a glaring example of an emancipated soul. Each one of us has the same potential to reach such heights.

     Isn’t it a very big possibility- one that is available to each one of us? But why are we not able to do so? It looks as if we have the tools and yet are not able to use them. What a great joke? What an incapacitating situation?

    If we have made up our mind to take this state of affairs seriously; we need to understand the reasons for our inabilities and the factors that are responsible for it.

Indian scriptures tell us about six fundamental enemies of human life.

  1. Desire
  2. Anger
  3. Conceit
  4. Greed
  5. Infatuation
  6. Jealousy

    But in the opinion of this writer, there is only one cause of all these turbulences in our mind. They generate out of just one rudimentary weakness; that engulfs us in its poisonous torrents. We are drifting just like a dead piece of log or a blade of grass in this torrent all through our lives. These six are just various trends of this torrent; these are natural facets of life forces. But the root cause for generation of these torrents is only one.

   What is that basic cause? Which is that powerful force that causes these torrents; that creates uncontrollable rapids in the flow of our lives? What is that basic weakness in us that gives abundant freedom to those six enemies; who mock at us; who ground us down though we have built in capability to fly free and high in open skies?

    It is the instinct of survival – the rudimentary desire to live – the desire that accompanies us from the first breath. The only expectation we have from our lives.

“I want to live. I do not want to die.”

    This is the first start of all desires – the first scream at birth of a child. It is at the root of all our incapabilities to combat those enemies; simply because that itself gives birth to all of them.

Desire- effort to meet the desire- success – conceit – greed to get more success – further desires.

OR

Desire – effort to meet the desire- failure – despair – anger – desire for revenge-

   And we are caught in this maze or that one – the uncontrollable torrents. We are destined to flow helplessly among these powerful forces; getting tossed this way or that way. Sometimes up on them, feeling the joy of being able to swim and getting ahead of others OR loss of breath and the despair on getting drowned.

   Same helplessness of that birth scream in a new form-

“I want to live. I do not want to die.”

   This is our life.

   Expectations…. Expectations….Expectations…. Insatiable hunger and thirst… rows and rows of mirages. Same slavery, same bondage, same prison. Same shackles all through the life.

I see the sky; but cannot fly.
My wings are clipped,
breaking the bars of my cage.

(A few lines of a Gujarati poem)

  Want to be free of this bondage?

  Want to fly like ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull’ freely in the endless sky?

  Want to breathe the fresh breath of Joy, Life energy and Truth?

  Want to be one with the primary element of life force?

We have to get rid of these shackles of desires and expectations.

Becoming FREE, Chapter-1

A new effort is started today on this blog; on 15th August -2013; the auspicious day of freedom for India.

Translation of my eBook
‘Bani Azad ( Becoming FREE)
from Gujarati to English.

It is an endeavor to share my views and findings to my relatives and friends , who are not able to understand Gujarati.

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When one becomes free by changing one’s attitude

The TIME becomes ones helper.

(A Gujarati poem stanza)

      These are the first lines of my favorite Gujarati poem. We have been told from our childhood that Time is very powerful; and we are totally helpless against it. There are many proverbs too to that effect; and our mind is conditioned, to accept them as gospel truth. We are prisoners in a cage of that conditioning; as if our wings to fly have been clipped.

       But if we can change our thoughts, our attitudes, our reactions to situations; we have the capabilities, built in our being to breathe air of a new freedom. Human mind and its capability to think are the greatest human assets.

     If we can attain such a freedom, time can become dependent on us. When we start listening to ‘the inner voice’; this freedom too can be accessible to us.

    But this is not as feasible to implement, as is so in writing or speaking. This is our greatest mental woe. Those who have attained such freedom; have attracted large followings and those followers have devised so many ways to attain such freedom by writing myriads of scriptures and guides. And these have made such efforts much more complex to understand and implement. We are bogged down in those cobwebs of opinions and dogmas.

  These dogmas, depicted in scriptures in various sections of human society have given rise to extensive disputes, conflicts, wars and bloodshed; creating new bondages, new worries and new prisons.

   Here, an attempt is made to raise that voice within us. The effort for that is to be made by us only; none can help for it. At the most; such dialogs/ readings can inspire and motivate us to start moving in that direction. And that first step has to be taken by us on our own only. We have to walk on ourselves only in the path of that freedom.

   If we intend to become free like a bird, flying in endless sky; we have to flap our wings ourselves.

   We may presume that ‘such a freedom will make us very happy; our relationships with all will ameliorate at once; or we will become prosperous overnight.’ In case any of these happens; it would be a bye product of the immense plateau of joy to which we start getting an access. Right now, happiness as well as unhappiness is the sources of bondage for us. The freedom under reference promises us the joy of flinging off that bondage. It has the potential of joy like the joy of a bird, flying free; the joy of an innocent child; playing without any motives. It is a joy devoid of Victories and defeats; gains and loss- Sheer, unadulterated Joy.

    If and when we can change our attitudes; everything can change, though remaining same: we start seeing them from a totally different perspective. When that happens, we are able to see many aspects of the same things or situations. We are able to devise alternative options. When we stop reacting in a blind way; we can devise new actions; we can see new paths opening up. Time appears helping us instead of obstructing.

    We no longer remain dependent on times; the times depend on us.